Monday, September 22, 2014

momma mondays: oh momma! you dressed!

For the past few weeks since Z has been with us, I am trying to figure out life with three littles. And for the past almost two weeks, I am trying to develop a new routine without the help I had for the first week. I could easily fit a shower in or heck, even brush my teeth when we had family around to help out each morning. But now, with it being just me and the three little ones in the mornings, their schedules don't line up right for me to do any of that first thing in the morning. And, sometimes it doesn't line up right in the afternoon at the boys nap time either.

It really gets to me after a few days when I can't get ready in the morning for the day. I don't even need to get all fancied up, but to just feel good, that helps. So this past week I wasn't able to work out getting ready until a bit later and I hated it. I was feeling awful about myself and about the day. But, yesterday, nap times lined up and I actually had a little bit of time to shower and brush my teeth. The boys took their long nap and Z took just a long enough snooze to get those two things done. I was so pleased.

And so was Will.

When he woke up from his nap, he looked up at me and said, "Oh Momma! You dressed!"
My two year old noticed I actually got dressed and was no longer in my sweats or pjs.

I didn't know if I should laugh or cry. Had I been that bad that even he noticed? I knew then that I had to figure out some sort of plan to get a shower in first thing, without messing ups little sleep I did get. So I figured I would make the attempt to set my alarm for a time that they might still be asleep and try for tomorrow morning. The boys don't always wake up at the same time so it might be tricky, but I'm going to give it a whirl.

So, to all you Mommas of little ones, how do you find and make the time to get yourself ready each morning? Do you have any little things that you do that make you feel better starting your day right? I'd welcome any tidbits of help while I figure out our days with my sweet ones.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

hold your loved ones a little closer

Last Sunday my Dad's younger brother passed away very unexpectedly. He spent the day as he normally would with his family and went out to mow the grass on his tractor that afternoon. My Aunt went out to bring him water and found him sitting back on the tractor, peaceful looking, but he has passed. He was a healthy man with no problems that anyone had known of. They are suspecting he had a heart attack. If you would, please keep our whole family in your prayers.

The picture above was the last time I had seen him. Since we lived so far away from each other, family visits became harder and harder over the years as his kids were busy as was our new and growing family. I am very thankful we had this sweet time with him and he was able to enjoy moments with Gus and Will. And we had wonderful memories a few years back at our wedding. I am so thankful he was able to be there.
My life has so many memories of and with my uncle scattered throughout and I will cherish those always. All of our hearts are broken with sadness right now, but we are able to hold on to each of our special memories of him to help us get through the grief.

One small but special memory for me with him was our mutual love of photography. I think we would both compete for who took the most photos at family events. We both could easily get snap happy with our cameras and I loved that! Even though we had a wonderful photographer at our wedding, my uncle snapped a few special memories that I will treasure even more now after his passing. He had great joy in capturing my special day for me. Below are a few memories he captured.

Arriving at the church and seeing my bridesmaids outside waiting with a few other special people.
Getting out of the limo with my Dad.
Possibly one of my favorite memories... Walking through the double doors, with a huge smile on my face, to walk down to my love when my veil got caught on the door. I leaned back as to not rip it and he caught that moment on film.
I am so very glad he was not only there to celebrate our special day with us, but was there to capture some of the happiest moments of my life.
You never know how long you have with a loved one. They may pass unexpectedly like my uncle, or have a long and tiring battle. Keep in touch with your loved ones, especially those far away or those you don't see often. Treasure the moments you do have while you have them. 

The death of my young uncle caught us all completely off guard and we are still in the state of shock while we grieve, but it really makes me think of how short life can be. Live it well, live it right, live it intentionally.

Like I said earlier, please keep all of our family in your prayers as we get through this hard time, especially his wife, three sons and daughter. 

Friday, September 19, 2014

six months

It has been six months.
 Some days it feels like an eternity ago. Others, like it was just yesterday.
And there are even some days that the feeling that it didn't happen wash over me. 
 I looked at one of the few pictures I have of my Popa with Gus and Will and just stopped and stared. He's gone.

 There will be no more faxes from him sending an article, no more calls to Gus wanting to bet $1 on an upcoming football game, no more cute greeting cards with scratch tickets inside, no more funny notes on random paper written in his black or red pen, no more phone calls to share the latest story of the boys... and now girl, no more breakfasts in their kitchen when he sneaks food he shouldn't eat, no more spills all over his freshly cleaned shirts, no more "glory be's"... no more new memories.
 My heart aches for my grandmother, figuring out for the first time in sixty plus years how to live without him. It aches for my mom and her sisters, knowing their sweet Dad, one of their very best friends is gone and not a visit or phone call away. It aches for the son-in-laws who were always his sons, without the in-law. For the grandkids, all six of us, not having our Popa cheering us on for the latest sport or school project, for the new job, for the hard day of a mom, whatever it may have been. It aches for my husband and my cousins' future spouses that they won't have all the years of love and fond memories that we did. It aches for Gus and Will, that they didn't get to make memories with him; that they really only met him once. For Zelie, that there was no connection with her Great Popa. He knew he would be a Great Popa again, but not to a sweet little girl. For John who just got married to his sweet bride that Popa loved, and for Leanne who is getting married in just a few months to her best friend, who Popa also loved. For the fact that they won't have the precious and treasured moments I was blessed with having with him at my wedding. He will be there. At weddings, at births of new babies, at each and every moment... in our hearts.

 The ache is there in so, so many ways. But I do know he will forever be a part of all of our lives. And we will never forget him. 
 His stories, his specialties in the kitchen, his traditions, his example, his love...
 it will all go on.
 For generations.
 Popa, life has changed so much for all of us since you left us. 
Months have passed with Nana living with Mom and Dad and I hope you are looking down on them as they take care of your sweet wife like you did for so many years of your life.
 We miss you, but know you are still a big part of all of our lives, in our hearts, in our memories and always in our prayers.
 Love you Pops!

Thursday, September 4, 2014

meet zelie

We are still not evenly split, this party of five, but a little extra feminine sweetness joined us.
Zelie Sofia was born on non other than August 28th, the very same birthday as her older brothers.
Now Gus, Will and Zelie all have something in common. Guaranteed. Forever.

8 pounds, 2 ounces and 20 1/4 inches of sweetness entered our lives at 8:42 am last Thursday. Her due date was today, but things happened for us a week early. She is the sweetest and calmest little one. Things are certainly different with her.

One baby is so different than two. So much easier. I'm not saying that all of you with one baby have it easy because babies are always a lot of work. But going from having two the first time around to one has been a dream. I also had a really bad recovery from the boys and this time I bounced back better and much faster.

The boys are such wonderful and sweet older brothers. I knew they were sweet boys, but it went to a whole new level when their baby arrived. They are sweet and tender and very attentive to her needs. I love watching them love on her.

I have family here helping me adjust and recover, and that has been a complete blessing. I'm not allowed to pick up the boys and put them in and take them out of their crib so help will be needed for a little bit, but I am looking forward to knowing what our new normal is going to become. What will our new routine be as a stay-at-home momma to three kiddos 2 and under?

I'm hoping to eventually get back into a good groove of blogging more regularly, but I have to see how our routine plays out before that happens. I wanted to introduce you to our little one though! Stick around and I'll be back!

Thursday, August 7, 2014

from four to five

We are three weeks out from going from a family of four to a family of five! Three weeks! This pregnancy has flown by, especially compared to my pregnancy with the boys. Sure there were days where I felt like I'd never get to this point and I'd be pregnant forever. Literally, forever. But I think thanks to my little men and the busy and full days they provide for me, this has passed rather quickly.

I have really slacked on writing on here and I miss it. I've either been super busy or my mind just can't process words well enough to write a decent post. Ideas have swirled through my mind, but momma brain prevented it from coming across well enough for my sweet readers. Once Little Miss arrives, I am not sure how my day will play out, how bad momma brain continues, etc, but I do hope to pop on here as often as I can to write little bits here and there.

The next three weeks are full. I've tried to plan out everything that needs to be done so the week of the baby's arrival, I don't have anything major to do besides the every day activities and chores. My sisters are coming to visit at the end of the week and by the time they have to leave, I will only have one and a half weeks left! Craziness! Though I haven't been hit by the nesting bug at all, I have everything ready for Little Miss. Everything else that needs to be done is just random projects. Hopefully I can stay on track!

So, while this is just a little update and heads up that posts will be sporadic while I transition from life with two toddlers to two toddlers and a newborn, I'll be back. Hopefully sooner than later!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

take us out to the ball game!

As we are coming upon another big life change, adding Little Miss to the family, we want to try to be sure to do a few fun things this summer before our outings get put on hold for a little while...and while I can still move. I think those days are limited. We took the boys to the zoo the other day and I thought they were going to have to leave me with the elephants because I was so tired of all the walking and waddling too much. The joys of being pregnant. My energy level is dropping fast and the heat of the summer gets to me after a while, especially while trekking through the zoo. Apparently my body enjoys being pregnant at the very same time, during the entire summer, as Little Miss will be arriving at the same time of the year as her older brothers did.

After seeing me trudge through the zoo, we thought something a little less active would be a good idea for our next outing. We decided since the boys enjoyed their time at the Washington Redskins game a while back, we'd check out our local baseball team. We could all enjoy the outing and as a bonus, I didn't have to exert myself too much... at least that is what we thought when we planned to go last night.

We found a great parking spot about two blocks from the stadium and I thought, oh that's a breeze to walk... until I took a pretty bad spill, with one of the boys in my arms. I had to protect not only the boy in my arms, but the baby inside. The Hubs and I are both surprised nothing is broken with the way I landed! I have a lot of pulled muscles and scrapes, but that is nothing compared to what should have happened, especially with my track record. Mare + sidewalks = bad news.

The fun didn't end there though. Our seat was the magnet for foul balls, which would be great if we had had a baseball glove with us. One of the balls literally came right for us. I looked up as I heard everyone around us getting excited and saw the ball coming right . for . us. I quickly dove over the boys as to cover them from getting hit, and apparently the Hubs dove over me. We must have made quite the scene! The ball ended up hitting the chair right next to me! Honestly, I am surprised I didn't get hit. That's how things with me usually go! After that though, we were clear sailing to enjoy the game!

While they may not look like the boys were always having the greatest time, they were. They were paying very close attention and loved people watching, light watching, airplane watching, and of course, ball watching! They would see the ball as it was being hit and once they didn't know where it went, ask us, "Oh no! Where go ball?" It happened to be .50 cent hot dog night so they enjoyed their hotdogs very much, while Momma and Papi enjoyed the price!

The Hubs really enjoyed taking his little men to their first baseball game, and it is definitely on our to do list again very soon! With a growing family, and keeping to a budget, it is very nice to live in an area that allows for affordable family outings. The game had a nice mix of a crowd and was very family friendly which was also enjoyable for us. It allows for the Hubs and I do do fun things as a couple, yet comfortable to be able to bring the kiddos along too!

Will has quite the reactions to things sometimes. This is one of his faces when he'd see the ball!

Will has improved his selfie shots. ;)

We don't have many family shots, and when we do get them, they tend to look like this. Someone is usually either hot and sweaty looking, slightly disheveled, blinking, not looking at the camera or not smiling. I have dreams of the perfect family photos, and if you have some sort of a trick, please let me know because I'd be grateful for even one! Maybe one day I'll save up to have Megan or Paige take on that task! For now, you get to see us in complete total reality! 
It was quite warm and the boys cheeks got nice and rosy and had funky hairdos by the time we left!

The stadium is set up inside with space to walk around, grassy areas, fun for the kids, etc. So it was nice to take a little walk to let the boys stretch their legs a bit.
Before I know it, the boys will be old enough to be in these batting cages themselves! For now, they enjoyed watching the big kids.
Gus made sure to take in every sight, not just what was in front of him and around his sides.

All three of our kids in one picture! (Not the little girl that photo bombed us)


Have you ever seen rocking chairs at a baseball stadium?! I had to just love this! Maybe it's southern thing.
One of the best feelings ever! A kiss from one of my sweet little men. When Will kisses me, it is not just a little peck. He takes my face in his hands and gives me a big kiss. It's quite adorable. 

Our family outings have been fun and I am so grateful for these days. When I was pregnant with the boys I was on bed rest so much which was nice to relax, but with two little guys around this time, it's nice to have the ability to get out and about with them before their sister arrives!

What are little family fun activities y'all do with your kiddos?!